This post was better before my computer lost it.

How my hair ended up coming out. Summer Plans/Goals – Read 50 books Be well enough to resume light cardio, easy hiking, some biking, and swimming To have a home traction unit by the end of August Find a way to choreograph a guard routine w/ baton, hoop, rifle, & ribbon wand Memorize 5 guitar […]

I am absolutely positively sure

  I am beyond pondering if I am stuck in the matrix. I secretly think everyone on Miranda survived and the happy gas didn’t make Reavers and I am the only one not in on their fake happy cult. BECAUSE SERIOUSLY !!!! DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR ABOUND, and I just am unclear on how to keep […]

HAHA – insomnia help edition

“Distract yourself with meaningless mental lists.” EXCEPT THAT IS WHAT MY ENTIRE LIFE IS CONSUMED WITH>>>>>> LISTS OF LISTS OF LISTS —- till I am so overwhelmed that none of them get done, except making lists to find other lists.    http://www.cnn.com/2017/05/15/health/sleep-expert-tips-partner/index.html

Damn Infertility

I want to name a kid after a Star Wars  (Expanded Universe) character. In the days before my hopes are dashed for another month, I let myself indulge in a daydream of what spousal unit and I would name our spawn. So after reading this today: and So my current favorite boy name is Airen […]

Jewelry, Grief, Self Anguish, and Living Again.

Ok, now if you don’t know me well you need to start out with some basic facts of my life. My life has bursts of tragic episodes. I get asked when I need bereavement days, again, if I am serious. My life went along fabulous. Great grades, great family, great health, great success. Perfect. It […]